E'zzati's Secret.

@andwe'rerunningwithbloodonourknees!.

WAITING SUCKS!. :( Lol... Lol... a 'lil update on wazzup before i post some real update... soon ;P

*RESULTS: 31 MAR!.
i actually stayed up by my phone!. lied on e bed and did nothing, just plain waiting. waiting sucks. weird tho, i've nv stayed by my phone without doing anything. haha -_-" at 080744 "Course: FHBSE. Your Mar 2010 exam results are: EM22010=Good;EM51070=S;EV4001PA=D;EV5001PA=C;OA49170=B." like as if i understand what e codes are. so TADA!~

most surprisingly!. got a B for PR!~ ^^ \m/ highest grade of mine in this batch. which is strange, coz i skipped more lessons than i did in POM, which i ended up with a C -_-" sadly, i got D for MICE, which is like kinda impt for events?. -_-" thankfully, i passed LPD and SWII. Alhamdulillah~ :) looking at overall perf, i missed e ABs in e earlier days. but hey, still a gd run of 3As 5Bs 2Cs 1D :) btw, D IS A PASS. i didnt know that!. haha okay got a credit more than required via elective mods, which is also strange coz elec mods r PR and TPS!. Lol... Lol... last but not least, GPA = 2.887!. sad how i dropped from e 3pointers grp :( there's a saying that your income is e incomes of e 5 closest ppl to you divided by 5. i guess it applies to GPAs too. it's funny to hv near 4pointers friends, and those who are hovering on e 2pointer mark.

THANKFULLY!. [again, i know] i hv 0.2 extra credit from my CCAs!. :D TOTAL GPA = 3.007!~ ^^ \m/ yay i barely scraped thru e 3pointer mark. haha mirror image e 3, and my GPA = E.BOND ^^ \m/ HAHAHAHA ROFL XD

*RESULTS: 1 APR!.
released at 2PM [ha ha -_-"], but i overslept an hr :) presenting... Contender #2: Diploma in Design for Interactivity (R36)

i know, Design for WHAT?! X) honestly, i cant recall applying for it. but ta-dah!. it's weird how i keep getting my 4th choice. PSS was my 4th choice in PSLE, if im not wrong BnF was my 4thchoice [i appealed duh], and so i digress. clueless, i went to e official website for more info ;)

"About the Programme: The premise of Design for Interactivity is situated at the intersection between product (object), service and environment design. The aim of the programme is to familiarise students with the interactive nature of design thinking, and to foster them to think critically about the design process.
Programme Objectives: Students will examine the impact of design on everyday life, and conversely, the influence of everyday life on design. They will be challenged to address fundamental questions such as: When does interaction ever cease? How interconnected and interdependent are we as individuals and communities? How do we manage information systems and technological networks? In their quest, they will help define the meaning and extent of “interactivity” through design and design thinking."

seems decent, but it appears to be mroe on e "talk abt it" side?. i dont wna just talk abt it, i wna be abt it!. ;) that aside, gg to poly might be less of a cultureshock. as in: SLA [Student Life Activities] ;) they hv Interest Groups [IGs] that inclds LD [which i dearly miss :'(] and i know of friends who wanted to go to RP for dance's sake. and i also miss math & science :( also!. HottIes Liyana will be in RP to for Sonic Arts [how dope!.] i think RP like talented shortys like us HAHA X)

SUMMARY: DESIGN vs DANCE.
LSL vs RP. i also considered which sch has betta men HAHA XP so i was in a mini-dilemma!. wanted to cry but no tears came up and i end up laughing HAHAHAHA -_-" yeah im all abt making somein and getting somein back, it helps e cycle of life :) still!. I CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY THOUGHT THINGS OUT. seems so... grown-up!. HAHA XP

HottIes Liyana tweeted that "As long as you do what you love :]", but i swear i love both. and it's not like, sports vs economics you know, design and dance hv an intricate rship!. just like fashion and music. since there's only one E'zzati Said, i suppose i'll hv to balance it out :) but i guess her next tweet helped much more "@ezzatisaid *-____-* your head laa! I think u go LSL cos Im not sure abt design interactivity bt i think da course u applied @ LSL better." :D

FINAL DECISION: *drumroll* LASALLE!.
DUH not much of a doubt, but it hurts. decision-making is the new heart-breaking :( FOR A MMT I FORGOT ABT HOW "POLY IS BACKUP CHOICE"!~ so yeah ;) also!. it's that "i liked you but i moved on and NOW you like me?!" situation. if they had taken me before ITE, i wld've accepted. now after gg thru ITE, i think i deserve more hehe XP plus, intake starts in mid-Apr and they had just emailed over e forms. not efficientleh!~ Sorry RP, i like your feel and environment, but it's too late. Sorry Poly'ezters [those who keep insisting on me gg to poly no matter what], I NEED TO MOVE ON!. I NEED TO PROGRESS. FASTER. in e tweet of HottIes Resi:
DON'T EXTINGUISH MY PASSION... PLEASE!.

*KUANTEEN!. MY HEART IS ACHING INSIDE!. Big Bang was in Thailand really recently. i cldnt sleep knowing they're so near. in fact, they're so near i can hear VI singing!. just kidding, HAPPY APRIL SMART!~ ^^ \m/ I EVEN KNOW HOW TO GET TO THAILAND AS AN ILLEGAL IMMIGRANT!~ :'( i feel so unjustified... thankfully some SingaVips were still up at 3AM to chat with me :) how pitifully funny. DAMMITLAH!. RAWRRARRRARR~

what sucks even more is they keep emphasizing on how great e turnout is and e girls. yes i know it's just e showbiz industry, Singapore is only a damn dot and it might not bring you as much profit and exposure. i cant promise you numerous attendance, but i can assure you that whoever that turns up, you have all of our Singalove. that's multiple times more than anyone else's ;) and if you like older ppl, aunties and uncles usually will drop by due to our natural kpo-ness!~ haha :'( [im just tryna console myself -_-"]

I FEEL SO UNLOVED RIGHT NOW!. :"( im not anti-Thailand btw, i hv great Thai friends who are really nice ppl. im just questioning. anw, since you're so nearby, why dont you stick ard Singapore during late apr?. AFF is coming up!~ HEEHEE XP i promise i'll treat you a Milo Dinosaur!. ;) make that 2 Milo Dinosaurs!. haha oh well i should learn to deal with it. slowly, a small step at a time, and you will reach here. I AM IMPATIENTLY WAITING. on e blinger side, [not to mention how his songs are sooo suitable in this mmt]...

*MIKA SINGAPORE 14 JUNE 2010 MAXPAVILLION@SINGAPORE EXPO!~ ^^ \m/
his Asia tour. starting from Japan, to Korea, then to SINGAPORE~ ;)
OHAYOU-ANNYEONG-OI MIKA!~ XP

this is really nice, very comforting indeed HAHA ;) ticket sales from 26Mar, still time to earn and save :) limegreen watch!. i wanted one but cldnt find, so mine's hotpink :) haha btw i like e "angel" picture. and i hope he piggybacks Katy Perry along here!~ HAHAHA XD i really wna go. JE TAIME MIKA, YOUR PERSPECTIVE ON LIFE KICK A$$!~ ^^ \m/

okay i think no one really comes here anymore, but for my own sake, i'll nv forget you... and i still bloghop when i can. so yeah. in other words, even if you dont come back, i wont hate you, i just hope that you wont stop so that i'll hv somein to read abt you and i'll know how you're doing.

I WONT HATE YOU. I WONT DISLIKE YOU.
NOO.. I LOVE YOU UPSIDE DOWN!~ ^^ \m/

MOTS: WHILE YOU WERE WONDERING WHAT THE HELL TO DO,
WE WERE WISHING WERE LUCKY LIKE YOU!~ XP by Mika.
CHEERS!. TTFN!. :D


Love xoxoxox Nebs

E'zzati's Secret.

@dimanadiaygentertainmentsaya!.

MIDNIGHT, 18 MARCH 2010!. :D i sat in my living rm to read e npaper [yeah i always read npapers at night, and in reverse order, backpage to cover] and guess what i saw!~ :D haha okay ignore my bad cropping, mly npaper is big so i had to scan 1 side at a time and paste all tgt -_-" i've seen BB and 2NE1 been featured on msia's entertainment mags and BB on a local entertainment mag, nothing much this time, but to see em appear on e local's main [and only] mly npaper, it must've meant somein ;)

btw, ST12 is coming to Singapore and im wondering if i wna go coz im so bored. i heard they suck at live performances so i wna check it out for myself, and it's at Rock Auditorium, which i hv nv heard of before, so i wna see e place!~ haha i wont lie to you, i only know one song from em XP tickets r quite ex tho. might as well just keep my $ for a concert that i actually like e artiste. YG, when you come to Singapore, pls dont sell tickets thru Sistic. they rip our pocket $ :( and you cant decorate your tickets :( e only gd pt is, they hv an online system where you can see e floorplan and book your seat :) but i trust BB!. that if they hv a concert here, they'd hv an awesome stage set that no matter where you sit, you'll still get a gd view no matter where you sit. therefore, e last and only gd pt of Sistic proves meaningless. sorry Sistics, but bcoz of you i didnt catch 3 of my all-time fav bands play, and i mostly blame you for it :D

that doesnt incld many other concerts that i'd love to support, but due to your bad pricing, i had to give em a pass. anw!. back to e article!. translating it was funny, i should've paid attention in mly class~ :) so now i know why Hot Dad's rtone is Fire!. HAHAHAHA XD

[TRANSLATION] KOREAN POP: BECOMING A CRAZE IN THE WEST
[PHOTO CAPTION] ENTER INTERNATIONAL MARKET: This girl group 2NE1 from South Korea music video was published on America's popular blogger website, Perez Hilton.
-Photo KPCULTURE.FILES.WORDPRESS.COM
[ARTICLE] Looks like the heat and greatness of K-Pop or Korean Pop groups now begin to get a place in the West, especially in America.
Popular blogger, Perez Hilton, had uploaded the latest music video clip of K-Pop group Big Bang, Lollipop 2, and latest song from group 2NE1 (pronounced: twenty-one), Try To Follow Me, on his blogsite.
But this is not the first time Perez Hilton featured a music video from both groups.
Before this, song Lollipop sang by Big Bang and 2NE1 had also been featured in his blog, perezhilton.com, that is commonly visited by millions of citizens from different countries.
A few month ago, Hilton's blogsite, whis is usually filled with recent gossip about popular artists in America had also featured music video from group The Wonder Girls, that is popular with the song Nobody, SNSD, and female actress Uhm Junghwa.

MOTS: AKU ASYIK TERJATUH,
JATUH CINTA DENGAN KAMU!~ ;D
Jatuh by Adam :) CHEERS!. TTFN!. :D


Love xoxoxox Nebs

E'zzati's Secret.

@there'saplacecalled!.

HAPPY 19YEARS 3MTHS!. HAHA!. :D

many kpop artistes r coming to Singapore these days, or ard e area [msia, thai,...] i feel like crashing some of their events to gain exposure so that Big Bang will take notice XP but i dont think im ready yet for em to come. i think i hv another new dream now. 121212, BIG BANG, NO BRAIN, 2NE1, AND ME IN SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM!. :D i hope, wish, pray. till then, wait for me okay?. i promise i'll work harder :)

oh btw!. i read somewhere that Backstreet Boys know of Big Bang and think that they're gd stuff :) HAHA!. now i feel guilty for laughing at em when i accidentally bumped into em when they were in town. i dno, it's just funny to see ppl you like when you least expect it. it made me think, you know. like... FORREAL?!. X) anw, 9MAR!. Wondergirls, Singapore, Bugis, Illuma. XD if im not wrong, i think 1 of em twitted "I love the weather here and the views..!!“ HAHAHA XD dammit i should stop complaining. also!. i think BEG went to Spize?. seems like there's much east side action. okay that doesnt make much diff, since i live in a somewhat middle?. but cool per... UNNIES OI!~ :D

Lol... Lol... 3days ago, 6MAR!. super inspirational day. haha. will update more abt it in like, i dno. 10mths later?. haha jk. i went to an event in e heartlands, learnt alot. like how i missed being in an event ald. and even more stuff. i've been thinking abt sounds lately, and i randomly recalled how AMKPS back then had quite a number of bells for diff reasons, and some r well... kinda catchy. so i laughed to myself thinking how much i've been tryna avoid, but keep being exposed and naturally inclining to arts. so now im pretty much raring to go for my next phase of life... after 13hours of gd sleep!. :D anw, a taste of what happened earlier that day. image courtesy of Hottie Zrn. pretty awesome!. ^^ \m/

phwoar~ karma is so cute. papers were pretty neat, i guess it's e tcher's way of retribution for my lack of attendance?. haha XP well exams arent everything, but i hope everything's all gd yeah~ :) okay i know i mentioned i'll continue updating abt life, it's coming okay haha :) another live feed from brain!.

*12MAR!. :D
finally it's "brk" time. i dont know what to feel anymore at this pt. lately, my heart has been beating quite fast [figuratively :)] and i dont even know whyth for. not that im in love or what [at least i dont think so?. haha] hmmm i hope to find some awesome stuff in Msia, coz i desperately need to kickstart my next stage of life with somein. i ald know what i wna buy tho haha X) and... I HATE PACKING LUGGAGE!.

i love to pack goodiebags and e likes, but i dno why i seem to just dislike luggage packing. a guyfriend once told me that packing should be done ard a wk before leaving, so that in case anything is forgotten there's still time. how sensible. my style?, just enough clothes to get thru!~ as long as it match with e rest of e family [so e pHOTos will turn out like a family lookbook HAHA] :D most impt, i just gotta bring my survival kit [Sone'zzati, spare mp3, hphink, earpieces, batteries, charger, pen] in some sort of purse. :D also inclds stuff like... accessories, mini-sze'chbk n some color pens in case i feeling2 wna graffiti :D

*11MAR!. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOT DAD!. :D
The Saids Mger!. :D haha btw, i realized that Good Charlotte's Benji Madden is also born on e same day!. HAHAHAHA omglah, imagine if he was my dad!~ "THIS IS E ANTHEM THROW ALL YOUR HANDS UP!~" see, discoveries all ald happening ROFL XD anw, i've come to realize and be thankful that Hot Dad's still alive. yeah he annoys me someimes, but some of you might not even hv your dad ard anymore. thanks Hot Dad, for not smoking/drinking/clubbing++. it seems that every other [esp mly dads] does so n isnt alive. so yeah, ROCK ON HOT DAD!~ ^^ \m/

*8MAR!. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOT MUM!. :D HAPPY ANNIVERSARY HOTPARENTS!. :D
The Saids Tour Mger!. :D haha. march is 1 of e mths i get broke easily, bcoz i hv to buy many presents haha. hmm, congrats for surviving 19y3m of me!~ ROCK ON HOT MUM!~ ^^ \m/

what else. SOMEONE ASKED ME GOOD QUESTIONS LATELY!. :D "HOW COME YOUR SCREAM SO HIGH PITCH BUT YOUR VOICE LOW?." haha, it's always been that way?. i just naturally talk in a lower raspier voice, but i can scream with much ease. even previously i've received some comments like "you can be a professional screamer" and "ni mesti screamo"!~ HAHA :D usually e following questions will be "doesnt it hurt when you scream at sucha note?." but to be honest, HELL NO!~ :) Alhamdulillah, i am blessed with powerhouse vocals HAHAHA XD seriously, it feels natural. i suppose part of it comes from my natural grit?. :) and e last question will be "if you can scream at sucha high note, why can you sing in a higher/normal girl's key?." this, i dno. think it has somein to do with technicality?. like when i scream, i use my highest chest voice for e basic sound, and e whole of my head voice for a range of highpitch notes control?. haha. in other words, my singing voice [voice mix or wtv], is something i hvnt mastered. so i can do low stuff like rapping, and high stuff like screaming. anything in betw, someimes i get it and someimes i dont. will work on it tho. THANKS!~ :D

10MAR, my fbk's fortune cookie: Plan for many pleasures ahead.
wldnt it be nice?. ;) heehee~ hmmm does anyone actually reads my blog anymore?. esp till here ROFL XD

in this mmt, i am emo. okay im always liddat HAHA XP -_-" but i find some comfort in knowing that it's a small world and we'll fosho bump into each other someimes, esp since we're in e same industry :) coz above it all, there r things i wna keep and know. heh. i will blog betta when im feeling betta. okay, let me leave you with somein to discreetly headbang to. ONLY THIS SONG SUITS!~ ^^ \m/

MOTS: IF YOUR PANTS ARE ON FIRE,
BEING A LIAR BCOMES LESS IMPORTANT!.
by Josh Miller X) CHEERS!. TTFN!. :D


Love xoxoxox Nebs

E'zzati's Secret.

@nodoubt!.

I WAS STUDYING. I SUDDENLY STARTED CRYING!~ T.T
haha omg im sucha simple crier, altho i've hvnt
cried in quite a while. like, CRY LIKE RABAK!~ T.T

*facebook.com/ezzatisaid
out of boredom in class, i created my acct. many things were shared there, and i dont hv anyone else to thank :)

*youtube.com/bustednebs
i rmb during my early ITE days, HottIes wanted to see me perform, but i wasnt ready enough to do anything. HottIes Stanley suggested that i record somein and put it on ytb, "who knows, skali you bcome popular bcoz of your video!~" ;) it wasnt until my BOBD cover when i had a vid, so i decided to upload it for memories purposes. there were a few views, but soon it died and i just posted more videos for fun's sake, thinking no one wld watch such stuff. imagine my shock when i returned and saw the increase in number of views!. what i know is, that you watch my videos and laugh at them. what i want you to know is, this channel was made for you. and thank you. if it wasnt for you, i wldnt hv made friends and gotten feedback from all over the world, and discovered so many things abt myself. i know im not the best singer/dancer/designer/writer/person in the school/class/club, but i hope that what i've done gave you an excuse to smile :)

*ezzatisaid.blogspot.com
THE MAIN REASON WHY I CRIED WAS THAT... i lost my feel of blogging, so i went to see my archives. this screen of words you're reading, is the very evidence of what a blessed life i had. i rmb creating this bcoz i wanted to keep all my memories since i entered ITE, n i damnwelldid. reading back, i rmb all the stuff that happened. inclding scrambling tgt to blog, bloghopping during classes,++ ;)

"WHAT IS ONE MINUTE OF CRAZYNESS COMPARED TO A LIFETIME OF MEANINGLESS?." -The Waterboys. somein liddat. that was my philosophy when i entered. i tried things, failed some, aced some. all i wanted was a few solid minutes of awesomeness, and now i got a lifetime more to live with. thank you :)

i know some ppl say ITElife sucks, waste time, blah3. i think that it all depends, i mean, i got into ITE and had quite an awesome time!. seriously, someimes i compare myself with my other friends who "made it", and i thank God for what i got. someimes i did wish i was as lucky as some others, but all in all, i know i was just asking for too much. so yeah you may hv tot you had a meaningless life in ite, maybe you just didnt use your minute. coz i said i'd do it and i diddit. yeah there were times when it was mendak, but everytime it happens, the only way life went is up :) in fact, i even kinda got complacent here and there, to the extend that moving forward seemed impossible. hell yeah, i am ready to progress. now i leave with much attachment of the heart [and gathered all my guts] for future life. obviously i wont be able to retain everything, but you know that i had a part of my life with you and that that's somein in itself ;)
ROCK ON, THERE ARE DISCOVERIES TO BE MADE!. ^^ \m/

NICE RIGHT THE PHOTO!~ HAHAHA ROFL XD my take on the comm/course card. anw!. alot of ppl prefer Vitamin C's Graduation [Friends Forever] song, but to me the perfect song is the one below. a 'lil bit romantic blah3, but it has everything, from where we're from, to where we're at, and where should we go. we'll meet agn, when both our cars collide!~ [MCR's Helena, emo a bit uh as always haha X)]

Run. Running all the time.
Running to the future. With you right by my side.

Me. I'm the one you chose.
Out of all the people. You wanted me the most.
I'm so sorry that I've fallen.
Help me up lets keep on running.
Don't let me fall out of love.

[Chorus:]
Running, running. As fast as we can.
Do you think we'll make it? (Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running. Keep holding my hand.
It's so we don't get separated.

Be. Be the one I need.
Be the one I trust most. Don't stop inspiring me.
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running.
We work so much to keep it going.
Don't make me want to give up.

[Chorus x2] (The future) [Chorus]
-Running [No Doubt]

ROCK N... RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!~ ^^ \m/
MOTS: SEE YOU AT THE FINISHING LINE!. :D
[altho i bet we're gna camwhore otw, maybe
drop by e refreshments table, check out hot ppl, ++]
THANKS A BILLION!~ CHEERS!. TTFN!. :D


Love xoxoxox Nebs

E'zzati's Secret.

@kepadarentakhatiku!.

HAHA!. APA KHABAR SEMUA?!~ :D
i find it so cute when ppl try to speak mly n instd of saying "apa khabar" they say things like "appay carebear" n "aper kebab" HAHAHA XD ALL I WANTED WAS YOOOU!~
so far i think Jared Leto spoke e best mly woohoo MAJULAH TIGAPULUH SAAT KE MARIKH!. ^^ \m/

okay lotsa major events coming up on my side, should start updating abt life soon if i wna get anywhere haha :) in this mmt, i am feeling super excited, i hope you r too :D examination, graduation, progression. expectations, infatuations, decisions. i dont know how i can summarize my life any further. if you're not willing to put some tot to what i write, then it's your choice. dont miss out!~ ;) live feed from brain agn~ :D

*8-11 MAR!.
Final Year Exams!. End of HottIte BishanIesta life. THANKS A BILLION!. :D i've prepared somein, wait for it, hope you like it :)

*12-15MAR!.
The Saids++ [inclding me] in Msia!. i hope SonE'zzati's battery will last, usb charged is inconvenient :( SonE'zzati = my life support system!. i dont know how i'd last more than 12hrs without my fav music. talking abt music... i checked my ytb, n recently i realize that e vid that is most constantly viewed is my nbd cover. which also means, most of my viewerships r from Msia. haha so im wondering if i'll bump into any msia kpoppanistas who'll recognize me. e world can be quite small someimes :) [from MICE module] as an Eventanista, i've realized that Singapore is the most convenient country in terms of amenities and standard of living. hving almost everything in such a small location, there r simply no contenders [except for the Internet i suppose haha]. altho i take for granted n find it "boring" usually, i still love Singapore life. MAJULAH!~
i dont really believe in gg into another country to enjoy another island life -_-" i, e'zzati said, is craving for urban development. i wna check out Resorts World at Sentosa!. :D HotParents claim that "bcoz everyday in Singapore it's urban so when we go holiday we go to msia, enjoy e beaches~" blah3. i find that i am less relaxed there tho. somein abt being hm is just comforting enough for me to relax. altho!. i cant wait to check out e kacak lelaki there. also, i hope to use more mly while im at it. haha. jalan jalan tengok jantan~ XD [lol am i that desperate?. -_-" but hey if guys put in effort we must notice what~ it's public domestic happiness] haha :) worst to worst, i hope to find some yummy Air Sirap Limau + Goreng Pisang ;D

*5-12APR!.
HottIte Apr Int 2010!. i hope i can be there to see what's up since e remains of my batch. also to say majimak insa to e rest of my college-but-not-campusmates :)

*28APR-2MAY!.
Asian Fashion Exchange 2010!. [AFX] :D firstly, i like e name coz it sounds like A7X HAHA ;) anw, line-up's pretty awesome. cant wait~ ^^
Audi Fashion Festival: 27APR-2MAY. Blueprint Fashion Trade: 28APR-1MAY. Asia Fashion Summit: 28-30APR.

*16-17JUL!.
Singapore Night Festival!. rehearsals n everything start earlier, not sure if i can make it but we'll see :)

*26JUL-1AUG!.
LASALLE Orientation Week!. :D

HAHA I AM ACTUALLY TYPING EXCITEDLY NOW!~ HAHAHA ^^ \m/
there're still more events to mention, but i'll keep it to this for now :)
seems that 2010's gna be bigger n betta, hope things work out :D
i hope i dont lose momentum, e only way now is up!~ ^^ \m/
fosho there'll be sacrifices to be made, bridges to slowly fall,
decisions to be made, but i hope that we'll find it in our
hearts to go on n live with mad happiness. fighting!~ :D

you should know it's hard to just forget the past so fast.
it was gd it was bad but it was real and that's all you hv.
in the end all that matter.
YOU CAN RUN YOU CAN HIDE
BUT YOU CANT ESCAPE MY LOVE!.
-Enrique Iglesias [Escape]

ROCK N... ROLL FOR YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!~ ^^ \m/
MOTS: BUANG YANG KERUH, AMBIL YANG JERNIH!. :D
CHEERS!. TTFN!. :D


Love xoxoxox Nebs

E'zzati's Secret.

@stupidbutitmadeyousmile!.

HAHA!. HAPPY BELATED LUNAR NEW YEAR!~
GONG XI FA CAI BIG BANG NA LAI!~
[means: gxfc big bang come here~ in case you dont understand :)]

i know, what a big orange right~ i tried some but it tasted kinda pomelo-ish?. haha oh well. xing nian guai le wo de ai!~
Singapore, as "multi-cultured" as we claim, is pretty much mainly Chinese country. or maybe it's just that i've always been approached by aunties n uncles who will just talk to me in chi?. not that i mind tho :) so yeah, LNY is always a gd time to just get in e spirit [mcm faham], like say... every mall's blasting chi LNY songs, n for some unknown reasons, i will find myself dancing/singing/headbanging along. n chi ppl will give me e confused look n ask if im an overtanned chi -_-" then they'll think im cute n gimme hongbao/oranges :D negatively, due to e Kwave, Ch8 n ChU aired some kmovies during e holidays. they had both Korean n Chi subtitles. there was even one which had Jap, Chi n K talking at e same time. haha seriously had to separate my brain. it's funny how Asian countries r trying too much to be Caucasian, or r even trying too much to be each other. i myself am guilty of being one someimes. in fact, im probably contradicting myself ald :)

e main reason im blogging abt this is bcoz i [somewhat] cleaned up my rm. found a lot more stuff than what i hoped for. evidences of my life's crimes. example 1: Murdock, 1 of my very first dsticks. example 2: oldpurse containing $19.90, now i wonder what cd i saved up for but nv got to buy. example 3: BUSTED'S A TICKET FOR EVERYONE CD ALBUM!~ :D

along with MCR's TBP n Blink 182's inlets, Westlife cds, n [surprise!~] Nsync cd!. :O i dont even recall hving anything Nsync. i was Westlife's smallest fan, but Nsync!. listening back, it's really funny. esp now knowing how Big Bang is like Nsync n other kpop guygrp as Westlife... well you get e drift :) i still prefer Westlife over Nsync, altho Big Bang over other kpop guygrps. maybe when Nsync does somein with say... Blink 182 n show me somein like a Big Bang+No Brain, which might nv happen, even if it does BBNB wld still be betta, so yeah. still!.

*BUSTEDnebs!.
now that i've found the cd, i've been listening to it on repeat. it's almost like, no matter how deep i've dived into kpop or latin or any other type of music, at e end of e day i still want Busted. same goes for anything else. i can be kpoping all morning, latin dancing all afternn, hiphop rapping all evening, n thru it all i'd crave for some Busted Blink 182 MCR Green Day n e rest of my fav rock stuff. ATFE's a live concert album, n everytime i listen to it i rmb what's onstage. okay so i hv e dvd also, but i still miss em. BUSTED ROCKS!~ ^^ \m/

i did a "stocktake" n realized that all im totally missing [as in, no clue where they r] now is 2 other posters n some merchandise :D now im like, so proud of myself for finding almost everything actually. Busted's 1st self-titled cd, Busted's A Present For Everyone [copy #2, copy #1 is lost for eternity], Busted's A Ticket For Everyone Live CD, Busted's A Ticket For Everyone Live CD Special Version, Busted's A Ticket For Everyone Live DVD [not in pHOTo] :D

haha i wonder if anyone i met recently knows that im a Busted fan. some had asked why my emails/usernames r "bustednebs", but does anyone really knows?. i doubt so. then agn, nobody really knows me anw, so what do i expect -_-" hmmm now i just feel like shouting n declaring how much i love Busted. so now you know~ ;)

MOTS: COZ TRUE LOVE LASTS FOREVER,
AND NOW WE'RE BACK TOGETHER!. 8D
CHEERS!. TTFN!. :D


Love xoxoxox Nebs

E'zzati's Secret.

@iwontwalkoutuntilyouknow.

Cousin Didi forced me to watch Haru Haru. i rmb completely putting it aside, although the "look" concept of the MV lurked ard in my head. SDO Ivy put for me all the kpop songs that she tot i wld like into my tdrive and said i should go home and listen to it. OH MY FRIEND was the "it" song for me!. ^^ \m/ BIG BANG NO BRAIN ONCE AGAIN. i only understood "1 2 3 4" "oh my friend" "let's rock and roll man i dont control" "love and peace" "trust me" "go away go away let's go away baby", but it dont matter. awesome song, love it like no other. nv hv i felt so impacted by a non-english song. ytbed n watched the MV 3 times in a row. blasted e volume n headbang, enjoyed the video concept, and marked the people to the music. CRAZY!~ some said it was a stupid collabo/the MV is nonsense, but i barely cared. what's best is, i didnt expect it to come from Big Bang, being a "kpop idol" grp. just typing abt this brings back the natural high, if you get what i mean.

so i listened back to Haru Haru, and i realized that there's so much more to Big Bang than just an ordinary grp. i loved how they manage to combine all the different styles into one song. at this period i was loving No Brain more haha. this was also the part where i started talking abt Big Bang here and there and almost got killed [exaggerating] by fangirls who found out that i was born on the exact same day as Seung Ri. at that time i didnt know!~ but he did caught my eye previously, like, i had a gutfeel of resemblance of him in myself.

after that was Stand Up intro, which i realized that they were more to hiphop in the early phase of their musicianship. altho i've been avoiding hiphop for most of my life, i actually enjoyed their music. now, i think that they are the closest thing to real hiphop as asia can get. [coz Too Phat broke up :(] i wished i was there for em in the earlier stages. but hey, they still made it without me, so that explains how useless i am in this murder city. [if you know where i got this line from, you are my best friend ;)]

Number 1!. finally a song that i understood~ what struck me most was the strong style that came with the MV. i, for one, hate to watch MVs with too many girls esp taking place in a club setting, but all the looks that came from it was just too good to not take in. and to learn that it's they who chose the styles emself, unlike those usual grps where it's their mger/stylist who asks em to wear this wear that do this do that, it made me much easier to fall for em. i rmb envying Aimee coz she got to dance with such lovely people. and the choreo seemed to just naturally appeal to me, it wasnt those typical grp looks and moves. this MV was also the one that gave me the confidence to introduce Big Bang to my non K-influenced friends. Zureena was the 1st person i introduced Big Bang to. i knew she was gna love the style that came with the MV. i hv nv regretted doing so.

Seungri's Strong Baby MV came out and obviously i love it. while ppl were making fuss abt him being "sexy" and all, and abt e kiss scene that was cut, i cant help but to notice him and be ignorant abt everything else. scary how lil things he does that if i were in his position, i wld do e exact same thing. there were also mmts when i think he does things that i doubt any other person would get. i must admit, i was looking out for mistakes and judging him and his dancing critically at first, but i diddit with love~

1st Big Bang Singapore Fanmeet thru 1 of e sources i relied on most was organized, what fantastic timing you tell me. i was so happy to get to appreciate Big Bang with strangers. a lot of things happened on e day, both good n bad, but i loved it and wldnt hv had it any other way.

G.DRAGON!.
despite my crazy english [as you can see from this post], i cant mention his name initially!. i kept gg "GHEE GRAGON" HAHA XD i gave up n decided to just use "Ji Yong". further into my Big Bang love n chatting with VIPuras, i started using "GD", before slowly getting to "G Dragon". i still like “Ji Yong” most :) what struck me most was his style!. be it fashion, sound, movement, energy, everything. i like how he always pushes "it" and try to improve the somein altho it's e same thing. lastly, like how he doesnt settle for less, like "somein simple". there's this sense of flashy-ness flamboyant urban vibe abt him that i adore and respect.

i do know of G-Ri, and i hv tot of how it'd be like if he were to know me [in case you're wondering, coz of the same bday with SeungRi n all :)] haha, i dont know what will happen myself, i think G-E'zza-Ri will just trip over ourselves n have a good laugh :D someimes it drives me crazy when i cant get to do Big Bang related fanstuff that is up to my standard, for fear that he might find out and be mad at me for being an insult to his works -_-" i hope that one day i'll be satisfied enough with myself to come forward. i am biased to him in terms of style and
sound. :D

SEUNG RI!.
HAHA!. WHAT CAN I SAY!. :D what do you want me to say also!. :D okay i did freak out when i found out he was born on the same exact day month and year. how cld things be so coincidental!. out of all ppl... haha. and him being popular in his hometown Gwangju, and me and my intangible attachment to Ang Mo Kio. failing auditions due to insufficient height, and not as strong vocals. to even doing the same poses in photos without realizing it. and of course, the undeniable SELF-CONFIDENCE!~ HAHA ;)

i think i hv a [one-sided, haha] love/hate rship with him. i love him [can say so] n e things he does!~ :D i hate it when does things that reminds me so much of myself so publicly!. it's like, what he reveals of himself is indirectly a revelation of all the pieces of me!. and some stuff, i suppose im just not ready to show yet. so yeah. eitherway, my bdays r nv the same anymore, every 12 of the mth i will think of him and how i wna meet him so bad :) every now n then i'll think of what is he dancing to now, i hope one day i'll get to listen to his mp3/ipod/wtv.

im always asked "what wld you say to him if you meet him?.", n "if you cld spend a day with him what wld you do?.", n e likes, but sad to say, i dont hv a fixed answer for that!. i think, when e mmt comes, everything will just happen naturally :) i hv tot of how it'd be like if Big Bang were to know my existence, and how his parents and my parents wld react if they knew they had children born on the exact same day. haha, it wld be the strangest thing out of the century!~ :D i am biased to him in terms of everything and dance. :D

T.O.P!.
since the start, i find him really cute. and i really like his deep voice, maybe due to my rock influences :) i admired that he doesnt take his shirt as much as the rest!. haha and i think that he's the best bboxer and rapper that Korea can get :) i hv a friend who is pretty similar to him, along with the "heartthrob" feel+-, someimes it feels as if i knew him all along. his sound appeals the most to me. i am biased to him in terms of hiphop and toys [like, action figures n accesories :)]

TAE YANG!.
i rmb watching him dance to Falling Out n Freeze, and thinking that he's the most handsome short man i've ever seen. i didnt really like him bcoz he takes his shirt off too much n is a bit too perfect for my liking. over time i started appreciating such high quality work from him, altho his style doesnt appeal to me. and i find that he's just very... real?. power to short, handsome, n real men!. haha. i am biased to him in terms of perfection n making everything look betta.

DAE SUNG!.
he makes me wonder how one can smile so much. i admire how free his voice is, and how i can alwaysenjoy a wholesome work from him. i am biased to him in terms of voice control n un-emo-ness haha.

nowadays, 1third of SonE'zzati is kmusic, and it's mostly their songs n [No Brain!. \m/] theres not a day that goes by without me listening to a Big Bang song. fortnightly+-, i hv to check out news on them. photos, fancams, merch, anything. Big Bang Japan Album was the 1st one that i bought, as in real CD format with the packaging n free poster n all. i think that it's hard to not like Big Bang initially, it's even harder to not love em eventually :)

i dont know if i deserve to call myself a "fangirl" or even "VIP". not that i compare myself a lot with the rest, but it's as if what i do for love for Big Bang seems so... meaningless when put side by side. yeah i may hv written a few stuff n doodled n promoted em, n buy their stuff here n there, but that's pretty much it. i wish that i cld do more tho, there's just so many things that i wna contribute in one way or another.

i dont know why i spot for mistakes in their work. some ppl say to love is to care unconditionally and look on the good qualities of the other party. if it is, then i think i fail in loving. bcoz it's the imperfect things that make me love even more.

i dont know why i cant sleep the night before their concert/big performance. it's not like as if i'll be able to be there, or even be performing with em, but i just wont be able to sleep well. and when i do get some sleep, my dreams will always be filled with things that they'd think abt for e performance.

i dont know why i derive such pleasure in their work. most of my free time r spent dissecting their music so that i can get a clearer sound of all the intimate lil details n work put into the whole thing. either that, or im re-watching their dance choreos or re-looking at their design concepts. sorry to break it to you, i am not sucha crazy fan abt e rest of kpop, so my sincere apologies goes out to you if you expect me to hv e same energy n excitement for your favourites. trust me, i dont mean to spoil your fun. we should know.

i dont know if it's written on my face. i get Koreans randomly coming up to me and telling me that they like Jiyong, and i wish i knew enough Korean to get by with a decent conversation. but i hope it nv fades away.

if you've actually read every word till you reach here, you're either a true friend of mine or you love Big Bang as much as i do [or more haha] or both haha :D

i really want to meet SeungRi. i really want to meet Big Bang too, but for now, just SeungRi will do. i’ve never wanted anything else as much though…haha anyway. i should stop thinking about it, makes me sad it might nv happen. it's tragic HAHA

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MOTS: FIGHTING!. :D
CHEERS!. TTFN!. :D


Love xoxoxox Nebs